
The Story
- Inspiring and insightful journey through grief
- Enter the wisdom of holy darkness
- Find a path to hope, spiritual maturity and peace
- Practical, reflective and inspiring path to healing
Paintner has experienced multiple journeys through grief that have brought her face-to-face with what she calls the “midwinter God”—the seeming absence of the God of life in dark and fallow seasons of loss. She has learned to confront her own terror in that darkness and to approach it with curiosity to see what it has to teach her. This endeavor has illuminated a path for her to embrace a life of profound depth, one that honors both the trials of suffering and the richness of joy.
With her characteristic integrative and creative practices, Paintner, abbess of the online Abbey of the Arts, guides her readers to view darkness as a place where seeds of holiness begin to germinate. Each chapter of this book unfolds as an invitation to grow in understanding of holy darkness and also meditate, reflect, and create with these elements:
- Paintner’s reflections on various themes of loss and acceptance
- Insights on a scripture passage written by Paintner’s husband, John
- A guided meditation to bring the teachings into your heart
- Prompts for an expressive arts practice to process these insights through creativity
- Reflection questions to integrate what you have experienced
- Writing samples from people who have worked through this material in an online retreat

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- Inspiring and insightful journey through grief
- Enter the wisdom of holy darkness
- Find a path to hope, spiritual maturity and peace
- Practical, reflective and inspiring path to healing
Paintner has experienced multiple journeys through grief that have brought her face-to-face with what she calls the “midwinter God”—the seeming absence of the God of life in dark and fallow seasons of loss. She has learned to confront her own terror in that darkness and to approach it with curiosity to see what it has to teach her. This endeavor has illuminated a path for her to embrace a life of profound depth, one that honors both the trials of suffering and the richness of joy.
With her characteristic integrative and creative practices, Paintner, abbess of the online Abbey of the Arts, guides her readers to view darkness as a place where seeds of holiness begin to germinate. Each chapter of this book unfolds as an invitation to grow in understanding of holy darkness and also meditate, reflect, and create with these elements:
- Paintner’s reflections on various themes of loss and acceptance
- Insights on a scripture passage written by Paintner’s husband, John
- A guided meditation to bring the teachings into your heart
- Prompts for an expressive arts practice to process these insights through creativity
- Reflection questions to integrate what you have experienced
- Writing samples from people who have worked through this material in an online retreat















